Monday, January 29, 2018

Well Life Has Been Quite Something Lately

I know I haven't been blogging, it's because I've been working overtime and trying my best to get caught up at work.  I've been behind for over a year and just recently I've gotten a new boss.  He made some big changes and now my work load has decreased.  
I used to have 20 stacks of papers - each 8 to 10 inches high. 
I've been so overworked that I have no energy for sewing at night, even looking at blogs is too overwhelming.  

And I decided that I should make room for the new man in my life.  Actually I should make room for him in my house! (hahaha)  Once we are married he will move in with me.  He has a house, but I have a house with a nice backyard and a pool. you think he's marrying me for my pool?  

So - I did a lot of clearing out after Mark passed but I still had tons of his stuff in the closets, the drawers, under the bed.  Actually everywhere.  I would like Bruce to be comfortable so I've been cleaning all that out.  Imagine moving in and there were still the husband's shoes on the bed. (Yikes!)

And that dear friends is why no sewing has taken place over here. 

I do want to point out that even though I have met Bruce and yes I love being with him, I still greatly miss Mark.  It's possible to still love Mark and still grieve and also love Bruce. Things didn't magically turn to rainbows and sunshine and my grief end when I met Bruce.  I have my moments of crying as well as my moments of joy.  

One of the hardest recently, was packing Mark's things that meant the most to me.  Like the shirt he wore to Sturgis
and we shared a bottle of KICKASS Wine.
With a name and picture like that we had to try it.
  We were talking to some people and he kept pouring a little more and a little more into my glass while I wasn't looking.  I didn't notice until I was a tipsy - and then I confronted him.  They all got a good laugh out of that. (Me too.) Sealing all of Mark stuff into that box was like sealing him up.  I was reduced to sobbing.  

It's hard to switch gears - I had a life all planned out with Mark.  That plan was just to spend time with him.  (Granted it was not a complex plan  - but still "The Plan".)  Now the plan is to spend time with someone else.  Sometimes it boggles my mind.  

Now about that wedding.  No - I'm not looking forward to it.  I want to marry Bruce - but not have a wedding.  I don't really like to being the center of attention.  I don't like planning parties.  

So far all I have is a dress. It's a backyard wedding with only family.  So it shouldn't be too hard.  I better get busy!

Here's my funny for the day.


  1. It sounds like you're making good progress towards your new life. Mark will always have a part of your heart, and I'm sure Bruce understands that Make your wedding whatever YOU want it to be. You're the only one who has to be happy. Well, Maybe Bruce should be a little happy, too. When is th ebig day, and will we see pictures?

  2. I agree with Sunny - make the wedding be just the kind of celebration you want. No pressure! Best wishes on the new life moments, and blessings to being able to move forward. The hard part is behind you, because you've already selcomed Bruce into your life.

  3. Your small family wedding in the backyard sounds perfect. Your life with Mark will always be a part of your heart...a wonderful part. Moving forward with Bruce, into the next stage of both your lives will be wonderful too. Blessings to you both.

  4. Glad to hear about the positive changes at work! Linda, I'm glad you're moving forward into a new life, maybe not the life you envisioned but I'm praying it will be very blessed and happy for you. Mark will always have a piece of your heart hon, that doesn't just go away, but I pray Bruce will be a comfort and a blessing to you.
    I had to laugh about not wanting a wedding - SAME HERE! I hated mine, even though it was so special, I do NOT like being the center of attention and neither does hubby, lol!!!!